In The End

I have the morning off work today because the weather is cool and it looks like it might rain. All I want is to be over my cold for good, so I won't be going in til 11 when Brad comes back for me. We woke up together this morning so I'm wide awake now and thought I would take the time to update our blog.

After the whole ex factor this week, I've been feeling really weird. I know she still has feelings for him, and he knew that too so it made me question why he would have spent so much time with her. As each day went by this week, I found out more and more things she had told him, and it just made me angrier and angrier because at the same time she had been messaging me apologies and trying to defend herself. But no matter how I look at it, it's not right to tell your ex boyfriend you have regrets and wish things could have worked out, especially when he's moved on and is happy now.

I was also really mad at Brad for not telling me everything upfront. I know he deems it unimportant and irrevelent because me knowing would only hurt me and not help the situation, but I don't want to feel lied to either.

Anyways, I've written her back once to let her know how I feel about the situation incase she didn't get it Monday night when I went to her house to steal Brad away. I'm finished with it now, and Brad is sorry. What I learned from this is to always be honest in the first place if you have a problem with something, and if you miss your chance, try to talk it out rationally afterwards. I also realized that if you trust someone than you trust them 100 percent. Don't question their motives, and take what they're saying at face value instead of overanalyzing, or else you don't trust them at all.

I trust Brad 100 percent. We love each other more than anything and that's really the only thing that counts in the end.