Seriously Sucks

Last night Brad started ranting basically about what is posted below. He doesn't want to grow up or think about the future because it's depressing, and I'm like the polar opposite. He's not sure he's cool about his brother moving out or his friend getting engaged, and I'm totally psyched! He doesn't believe in marriage, and I do. I don't know if it's the priest and paper thing or the commitment thing he has a problem with. Either way, he doesn't think about me in his future, or the future period. It would be different if he lived day by day to the fullest, but I feel like we're both just biding time right now, so it's like he's not living for today or tomorrow.

I don't like that I can't talk about our future together because it "freaks him out". I'm NOT one of those naive girls who thinks "together forever" but when I picture going to school, I picture him at my homecoming and visiting me on weekends. When I picture moving out, I wonder what it would be like to have him as my roommate. When I imagine getting married, as every girl does once in awhile, I definitely don't see a blank face as my fiance. Of course it's Brad, why wouldn't it be? I love him now, so I want him then. It doesn't mean things won't change down the road. People drift apart, make mistakes, fall out of love. All you can do is close your eyes and hope for the best.

It bothers me that he's soo logical and refuses to think that far ahead because who knows what will change... Where's the fun in that? I reeeally don't want to think about all of this. He loves me. We're young. Go with the flow. I think I'm okay with that, but there's that little nagging voice that's like, what happens if in five years we're still together and he still doesn't want to grow up? Then I'm screwed!

Fun Week Of No Work...Now What?

So it has been made official, I quit my job and have had one of the most relaxing weeks in a long while. Since I didn't have anything to really do during the days, I have been going over to Emily's house in the morning and crawling into bed with her while she is still asleep. We will usually sleep until about 1:30pm, wake up and take advantage of the empty house. It is too bad that this lifestyle couldn't be permanent because that would just be awesome, but eventually the money would run out and then what? I just think it is such bullshit that we get to the age of 5 and start school, and at the end of grade 12 it is one of two options: Go to college/university and get a further education to hopefully get a better job, or start working right away. I personally chose the first option, but then after three months realized how much I actually hated school, so I came home and worked. I went through a couple of jobs before I went to work with my buddy at a landscaping company, which is the job that I just quit. So here I am, feeling like I am staring at a blank wall, not sure what to do next. I want to be able to live my own life without some boss telling me what to do or having to worry about money. I want to be living in a nice house with nice things, able to travel anywhere and anytime I wanted. Guess what you need to do that? Money. Guess what you need to do to get money? Work. Seems unfair to me that we don't get to live our own lives until we retire at an age when we don't have the same energy we used to. Unless you win the lottery or have some setup ready for you that most people would never get, we are stuck in this rat race along with everyone else. I guess some people are happy with their jobs, but that is a small percentage. I am one of those people who would be happiest making lots of money while not working, and I don't think too many people in the world would disagree. So now, my plans for the future, I am going to get my real-estate license and work my ass off for the next little while. My parents have done well for themselves in this business and they are pretty much retired at a fairly young age. Thing is, they didn't start as young as I am about to, so I am hoping to make the money I want and be able to retire in time to live my own life.
Alright, enough ranting for tonight. I'm going to crawl into bed with Em whose sleeping over tonight and already asleep.

No Fighting Streak

So Brad and I fought for the first time in weeks, maybe months, yesterday. We've been sooo good together lately, it felt like the beginning of our relationship all over again. Then yesterday he was supposed to come over and spend the whole day in bed with me since it was finally an actual rainy day off work for both of us, and it's been awhile if you know what I mean... But he totally slept in and didn't come over until 5 so I didn't have the house to myself anymore. We have to be really sneaky in my house so I thought he would stay late so we would get the chance when everyone went to bed. UFC was clearly more important since he told me he had to leave by 9, so I switched into bitch mode going off about why he would even come over in the first place if we only had a couple hours and he was tired anyways... When I went downstairs, he just left without saying bye, which he's never done before so he was obviously pissed off. So I called him and started yelling, which got him even angrier and he told me to stop acting like a 10-year old, which I haaattte. Cleeearly I'm upset and those comments don't help. When he hung up on me because I was "repeating myself" I sent him the nastiest text, which I feel bad about now because he texted me back that it was "a bit much" and "you know I don't handle these situations well". He told me to call him later when we both calmed down, but I didn't. The thing is, he aaalways does this, he wastes an entire night being angry when we could have just figured it out without him leaving and still had a good night. So I was prepared to wait days but he ended up calling me at 11:30 to say sorry anyways. I told him that just because we see each other pretty often doesn't make the days that we hang out insignificant or unimportant. I told him I wasn't going to apologize because I feel like I always do and this time it was his fault. Maybe if I hadn't switched to bitch mode and asked nicer then Brad would have stayed later, but I don't feel like I should have to convince him because that just makes me feel like an idiot. I told him to be a man and deal with your women, don't just take off. I've told him countless times before that he's going to have to listen to me and talk until the problem is resolved. Like I said, by resolved I don't mean six hours later when we've wasted the night being mad at each other. Anyways, long story short, he gets it but I still don't think it's going to be any different next time. We can work on it as much as we can, but in the end I think we just handle confrontations verrry differently. But I love him and at least he called to apologize so he better make it up to me soon. Hello, I haven't gotten laid in a week AND A HALF!

Lazy Days

I took today off because I'm still kind of sick and feeling super lazy. I got almost no sleep this weekend since it was Brad's birthday! It was such a rush getting him his present and inviting his friends over as a surprise, but I'm glad he liked it all. I fell asleep at 10 last night right before our show came on, and Brad practically had to carry me home... I feel bad though because I wish he had today off too. Tonight we're going out to The Keg to celebrate his birthday, just his mom, dad, brother and the girlfriends! Then tomorrow it's supposed to rain so hopefully we can drink tonight and sleep right in tomorrow being lazy together :)

Birthday!

About time we started writing on our page again, why not start on my 21st birthday? I celebrated last night with my family and friends and ended up giving a drunken speech over my birthday cake, which was funny but not necessary. Em and I just got back from 4-wheeling out to a little spot we discovered that we've been going to lately. It is a huge climbing tree in the middle of a dead forest, sounds creepy but it really isn't. We were joking about building a tree fort and living in it. Got a wicked awesome lighter for my birthday also, engraved with an eagle and Cullen on it. So now since I have internet in my room, we should be updating this page more often. Lots of fun stories to tell from the summer time.

The Ends Not Near, It's Here

What an amazing summer! I wish it wasn't over, but looking forward to changes this fall too. I LOVE this boy. We'll start updating again soon, but for now... Pictures are worth thousands of words.

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Hiatus

His & Her Point of View is going to be put on hiatus for a few weeks until Brad or I have some more free time to update. We're still really busy at work and enjoying our free time up North this summer. By the end of August we should have a lot of updates to make and photos to post! Looking forward to it :)